Updated: Jan 24
Memories of my own struggle with depression flash back to me as I look through photos from an article from Bored Panda, 50 Photos That Prove Depression Symptoms Have No Face. I spent almost 20 years fighting to stay alive inside myself and yet only a few people knew it.
In 2011, I tried to take my own life. Before this day, I spent on and a half years going through many scenarios on what would be the most painless and effective way to end my life. I would pray every night to not wake up the next morning. I prayed to have some "freak" accident happen to me. I wanted and yearned for my life to end.
Yet, when I tried to end my life, I thankfully failed. This is one failure that I am forever grateful for. That morning afterwards, I woke unexpectedly. I told myself that I would never again give up on living and that I was determined to heal myself so that I could help others heal.
I had no idea why I didn't die. I had no idea what my next journey was going to look like. I had no idea what it would take to get to that point. I had no idea that I would be fighting with myself for years to come. I didn't know where I was going or how to get there. The one thing I knew was I would NEVER let myself get to where I was the night I tried to commit suicide.
So, I went searching. I went searching for more knowledge. I went searching to understand myself. I went searching for spiritual help. I knew my empathic and mediumship gifts were getting stronger. I knew I needed help. And I found the help I needed because I didn't stop giving up.
Fast forward to now. I am doing what I set out to do. I have helped numerous people make lasting changes in their lives to continue living. And I will continue this work no matter how hard someone or something tries to push me down. I made that promise to myself.
Every day I work on myself to grow, to heal, to thrive. There is no magick pill. It takes believing in yourself and opening yourself up to your true greatness. This doesn't always come easy. Walls are torn down, relationships destroyed, death of the old patterns. It takes determination and deep inner work to keep going and thriving.
Know that there is a way forward. I say this from my own experience. It might suck at times. It might be painful at times. You might feel hopeless and alone at times. But, there is always a path forward. I challenge you to find that inner strength and determination to continue your life, no matter what life brings you. Find your true self again.
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Disclaimer: this is from my own experience, my own observations, my own perception from listening to my own clients, reading people's posts & comments, watching people's videos, years of research for my own inner healing journey. It's a generalized observation and it might not be about you.