My Journey to Holistic Health

It’s hard to say when and what exactly put me on my path to where I am now. I almost feel it was predestined and definitely in my genes. My path was not an easy one and I really didn’t truly start grasping everything until I was about 33.

I lived a crazy lifestyle in my 20’s. I’ve lived through abuse, rape, addiction, and severe mental illness. When I look back at my life there are many situations that were eye-opening and enlightening moments. But one moment stands out more than all others.

In 2007 I went on a date with a Brazilian Buddhist and we talked for hours about seeing the world through a different set of eyes. He explained to me that us meeting on that particular day (which I chose) was a special day in the cosmos for life transformation. I didn’t really understand what he was talking about at the time but I was open to new ideas. However, the part that freaked me out, was when he showed me his meditation room. While I was standing in the doorway, afraid to go in, he told me to close my eyes. He started playing a Tibetan bowl. Almost instantly I went into a trance that scared the crap out of me. I pushed myself out of it, grabbed my things, and quickly left. I have never been the same since.

That day opened up my whole world on holistic health. I picked up the book he recommended, The Power of Now, by Eckhart Tolle. I read the whole book within a few days. And within a year, my psychic abilities began to ramp up drastically. I didn’t know what to do with all the energy that was coming through and eventually it put me in a deep depression. My world was turned upside down.

I tried really hard to un-see what I saw and heard but it was impossible. I started drinking more heavily. People started thinking I was crazy. And my depression increased because I didn’t want to see what I was being shown. I didn’t know what to do with the information I was being given by source. So, I ended up going into full self sabotage mode.

I destroyed my life. I made a choice that I didn’t want to live knowing any of the information I was being given. And I ended up trying to end my life in 2011. Awaking that next morning after taking a cocktail of hardcore sedatives, sleeping medication, and alcohol, with no physical harm, pushed me to seek deeper within myself and the holistic world.

I shouldn’t have been alive with absolutely no physical harm. So, I went searching for answers. I went searching for someone who understood what I was going through and could comprehend the information I was given. Thankfully I found that person after searching. And in 2012, I started training with the Modern Mystery School in Boston to get a greater knowledge of the universe and myself. I received many initiations with them. And in 2013 I started training in Universal Kabbalah. This training pushed me further into discovering who I truly am and how to help others know themselves.

In 2014, I became pregnant. Not something I ever wanted for my life. I never wanted to become a mother. However, something inside me could not let go of the fact this was possibly a gift from divine. So, I let divine take the wheel and my daughter was born in 2015. My life began, once again, to turn upside down.

I had no idea what it was to be a mother. I read books but I did not have the confidence needed and got myself into some major struggles. These struggles pushed me so low that I ended up having to say goodbye to the life I created for myself in Massachusetts and relocate back to Florida near my family. I was terrified. I ran away from my family in 2002. I could not imagine being so close to the pain and the lessons that were about to come to me.

This new initiation into motherhood was not an easy feat. It has taken every tool I had in my spiritual, psychological, mystical, metaphysical tool belt to stay on top through this new life of raising a child. There has been big ups and big downs through it all. But no matter what, I grow each day and increase my awareness of my own self to then help others with their own inner discoveries.

To this day I only continue learning new ideas, concepts, and modalities to enhance my understanding of this human life. And I am here to help guide others to a better understanding of themselves.

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