It’s hard to say when and what exactly put me on my path to where I am now. I almost feel it was predestined and definitely in my genes. My path was not an easy one and I really didn’t truly start grasping everything until the past 7 years. I lived a crazy lifestyle in my 20’s. I’ve lived through abuse, rape, addiction,and severe mental illness. When I look back at my life there are many situations that were eye-opening and enlightening moments. But one moment stands out more than all others.
In 2007 I went on a date with a Brazilian Buddhist and we talked for hours about seeing the world through a different set of eyes. He explained to me that us meeting on that particular day (which I chose) was a special day in the cosmos for life transformation. I didn’t really understand what he was talking about at the time but I was open to new ideas. However, the part that freaked me out, was when he showed me his meditation room and while I was standing in the doorway, afraid to go in, he told me to close my eyes, and he started playing a Tibetan bowl. Almost instantly I went into a trance that scared the crap out of me. I pushed myself out of it, grabbed my things, and quickly left. I have never been the same since.
That day opened up my whole world on holistic health. I picked up the book he recommended, The Power of Now, by Eckhart Tolle and my psychic abilities went ramped. I didn’t know what to do with all the energy that was coming through and eventually it put me in a deep depression because my world was turned upside down. I tried really hard to un-see what I saw and heard but it was impossible. I started drinking more heavily. People started thinking I was crazy. And my depression increased because I didn’t want to see what I was being shown. I didn’t know what to do with the information I was being given by source. So, I ended up going into full self sabotage mode.
I destroyed my life because I chose I didn’t want to live knowing any of the information I was being given. And I ended up trying to end my life in 2011. Awaking that next morning after taking a cocktail of hardcore sedatives, sleeping medication,and alcohol, with no physical harm, pushed me to seek deeper within myself and the holistic world. I shouldn’t have been alive with absolutely no harm. I went searching for answers. I went searching for someone who understood what I was going through and could comprehend the information I was given. Thankfully I found that person. And in 2012 I started training with the Modern Mystery School to get a greater knowledge of the universe and myself. I received many initiations with them. And in 2013 I started training in Universal Kabbalah. This training pushed me further into discovering who I truly am and how to help others know themselves.
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